How I came to
Islam…I left my hometown back in Italy, in January 1998. I wanted to study
English in London and then back at home I would have found a job. My idea was
to be a tourist guide in Rome or around Italy. I needed English as the main
language. So I left Italy. I was only 18 and I didn't know anyone in London,
but it was an adventure…
Once in
London, I started to look for a place where to sleep…yes I know; crazy!! But
really, I didn't know anyone…In the end I found this place and stayed for the
night. The day after, I was already in search of a job and a college. As days
went by, I was getting more apprehensive as I couldn't find any job and money
was running out very quickly…I found myself, in this chapel in central London
and decided to go in and pray. I was really sad and felt lonely…I knelt down
and started to pray to God. I was never the kind of Christian who would pray to
Jesus. I prayed to God alone and asked Him to help me. While I was crying to
God, a priest came out and was surprised to see a young lady crying and
praying. He came over and asked if I was ok. He said to have patience because
God rewards those who have patience…I felt better and left…But my prayer on
that day was answered one year and a half later…
At this point
I was thrown out from the place where I was because I couldn't afford the rent.
So I had to pack my things and went in search again for a new place to stay.
Later in the evening, I met some Italian girls. They invited me to stay with
them in a youth hostel. It was a hostel run by Christian nuns, and the place
was open only to girls. I started a new life in this ‘convent’. I was never a
shy person and to be honest, I was always the heart and soul of the party. But
that year, I was in for a surprise that changed my life forever!
To start with,
I found a job, and that meant I could afford the college where I could study
English. I met some lovely Muslims at work. They would spend hours talking
about God. I would ask them about Islam and the Qur’an. Sometimes I would get
upset because they would say Jesus was not the son of God. “Why? How can you
say it?” – My answer was. I particularly spent time with this guy. We spent
entire afternoons in Hyde Park (A Very large park in Central London, UK)
talking about Islam. I even bought a Bible and would defend my Religion. He
would take the Qur’an with him and back his facts.
The same guy,
he then introduced me to his family and his sister in-law talked to me about
Islam. She was a convert too and showed me pictures of her when she used to be
a Sikh. She used to be the life of the party too…I thought “that’s me now” –
and I looked at her with admiration because she had the guts to change her
lifestyle and her situation for the better! She was pure and reborn. I felt the
need to do something.
So I left her
home…She said many things that touched my heart. I was patient and believed in
God. While I was walking back home that day…I heard a call…it was the ADHAAN(=
the calling for prayer time) in my ears. Never had I known it existed, never
had I heard such a beautiful melodic sound. Allah was calling me to success! (One
sentence in the Adhaan says ‘Come to prayers! Come to success!’ I did not know
that back then.)
So I accepted
it HIS (God's) invitation and took the shahada (to bear witness that there’s no
God but Allah and Mohammad peace and blessings be upon him, is the Servant and
the final Messenger of Allah) one week later.
[Shahada:
After uttering the words of the declaration of Faith and believing in it with
your heart, you become a Muslim, a servant of God.]
The dua I made
that day in that chapel was…"Oh Allah if you really love me, then guide me
to what’s right. Ameen." Allah guided me because He loved me but it took
more than one year of patience for me to accept Islam as a way of life, the
same ‘patience’ (sabr in Arabic) the priest was talking about that day in the
chapel. My life changed totally.
I used to club
and drink. I used to smoke and take drugs! There was not a party in town that I
did not attend. My life was very sad, full of friends but lonely! Allah loves
me; I know this for a fact because He saved me from that life! He saved me from
a life of sadness, loneliness and misery! I don’t feel blessed…I feel humbled
and HONOURED because Allah chose me. He could have left me in despair. I was
lost in the dark. For those who knew me before, they now look at me with
respect. I was the heart and soul of the party! I am now nourishing my own
heart and soul.
Alhamdulillah...ukhtii =]
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